Forgiveness

As I sit here trying to do my work, I realize that I cant be mad at you any longer. No matter how stupid or mean a thing you did, it still does not help. I called bazi this past weekend to bitch him out and let him know how I really feel, but that was a very drunk thing and I dont even have his number anymore so I dont know who I was calling. Thankfully no one answered and I dint get mad at no one. I have been thinking about him since. My needs to reach out to him and have him comfort me at all times is something I am so sick of but something I am working on eliminating. However, dispite my stupid needs to have a conversation with bazi, I feel as though I am past the anger, I am past the defeat, I am past being mad. I have forgiven bazi for all the mean things he said to me, for all the horrible things he did to me, for all the things he put me through.
I saw this as a bumper sticker today "for every BEAUTIFUL girl, there is a DUMBASS guy, who did her WRONG and made her STRONG"......so accurate, so perfect, so the story of my life.

4/13/11 7:25pm

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Little things that make you happy,
Little things that help you realize,
How perfect imperfection is,
How strange life is,
How small our existence is,
How pathetic our little desires are,
Compared to the truth of life.

Realized

I think I just had my "And there it was...just like that!" moment, as they seem to happen often in Sex and the City.... referring to my sudden realization of how much I just started liking Jellyfish! like just now, this second, this very moment.!

I think its ironic that they sell cigs at pharmacys...WTF?

My life is a story and I dont mind sharing it. Its not a mystery thriller or a criminal investigation, so I have no secrets.  Deal with it...

God gives me the opportunity to be a Limo then makes me pee in the allies of NYC....what's up with that?

All I need is a Lamp and my THREE wishes :)