Awaking

You saw me smile,
You saw me cry,
I lived a lot,
I lied a lot,
You helped me grow,
You killed me some,
But each day that passed,
I knew,
I awoke something new,
Something deep inside,
Inside my soul,
That made me smile,
Even when the sun dint show,
I laugh out loud,
Thinking about it,
I dream each day,
I breathe each day.

I dint know I lived in a glasshouse....till everything started to shatter all around......
इ दिंत क्नोव इ लिवेद इन अ ग्लास्शौसे....तिल एवेर्य्थिंग स्तार्तेद तो शत्टर अल अरौंद.....

Something..

I cant wait for you to hold me,
I cant wait for you to touch me,
When you hold my hand,
As walk or as we sit to eat,
My heart feels at home.
I calm my nerves but the tickles in my belly
They dont want to go away,
I eat nothing,
I just dream,
Just dream that one day,
We will be something..
Something we are meant to be.

In the works ( this is a tough one)

Teaching my self to breathe,
As does my heart still bleed,
I remind myself of the pain,
Of all my losses and some gain,
I think of you and it hurts,
I think of times, when I was strong,
Nothing would bring me me down
Nothing could do me wrong,
But now I cannot get back up
Lost myself, its so fucked up!
Recover i want to soon,

Alive

I sit and I think about the days I have lived,
The paths I choose to walk on,
The view I saw along the way,
The birds that provided music,
The rivers I floated on,
The Stars that kept me busy as I counted them,
The moon whose light, eased my fears,
And I realized how lucky I have been,
To be alive through it all.

(Dedicated to Vilas Pendse)

No Answers

On those lonely nights,
When I lay in my bed,
Wondering if it would ever end,
Wondering if my life would get better,
I have flash back to my happy days and miss them,
I think about what my life should be,
I breathe heavier cause i start to get excited,
The things that would happen
All of them would be good,
All better than the last,
Everyone would want them,
Green would be the new black,
And I, the talk of the town,
Then I wonder if happiness is what I want,
If I want to be without you,
If it is possible to be happy and alone,
Answers to them,
I will never know,
As I drift off and sleep it all off....

moment...

Slowly I walked to the door
And then even slower I open it
My heart beat, faster and faster
My breathing slower and slower
I start to pray
But cannot think of what to say
Do I want to be protected to do I need courage?
Will I be okay?
How long will it take?
Do I even know what really is the matter?
Will I know how to handle it?
Scary thoughts now enter my mind
My legs weaken
My heart warns me, that it is not strong enough
But how long can I procrastinate?
I finally take a deep breath,
Open the door and walk....