In the works ( this is a tough one)

Teaching my self to breathe,
As does my heart still bleed,
I remind myself of the pain,
Of all my losses and some gain,
I think of you and it hurts,
I think of times, when I was strong,
Nothing would bring me me down
Nothing could do me wrong,
But now I cannot get back up
Lost myself, its so fucked up!
Recover i want to soon,

Alive

I sit and I think about the days I have lived,
The paths I choose to walk on,
The view I saw along the way,
The birds that provided music,
The rivers I floated on,
The Stars that kept me busy as I counted them,
The moon whose light, eased my fears,
And I realized how lucky I have been,
To be alive through it all.

(Dedicated to Vilas Pendse)

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On those lonely nights,
When I lay in my bed,
Wondering if it would ever end,
Wondering if my life would get better,
I have flash back to my happy days and miss them,
I think about what my life should be,
I breathe heavier cause i start to get excited,
The things that would happen
All of them would be good,
All better than the last,
Everyone would want them,
Green would be the new black,
And I, the talk of the town,
Then I wonder if happiness is what I want,
If I want to be without you,
If it is possible to be happy and alone,
Answers to them,
I will never know,
As I drift off and sleep it all off....