moment...

Slowly I walked to the door
And then even slower I open it
My heart beat, faster and faster
My breathing slower and slower
I start to pray
But cannot think of what to say
Do I want to be protected to do I need courage?
Will I be okay?
How long will it take?
Do I even know what really is the matter?
Will I know how to handle it?
Scary thoughts now enter my mind
My legs weaken
My heart warns me, that it is not strong enough
But how long can I procrastinate?
I finally take a deep breath,
Open the door and walk....

I dont just want...

I dont just want your smile, I dont just want your truth, I dont just want your pain, I dont just want your affections, rather I want your essence....I want, I want, I want it all